Chemo hitting me

I had chemo on Monday, and have felt pretty good since, but I woke up at 4am today with my stomach lurching. I got up and took some anti-nausea meds. My stomach was empty so I'm sipping on chicken broth and so far I'm keeping it down. 

Even though I am exhausted at night, I seem to only be able to sleep for a few hours at time at night. I have tried staying awake all day, but I think my body needs the rest of a couple short naps during the day. I also feel better when I walk a bit each day, even though it is usally just a block or two. Time to get out the scarves too. Loni made me a nice one and Shaunna and Kalynn each gave me one over the last couple of years. They will especially come in handy this year! the back of my head where I have lost hair gets soooo cold when I go out. I seem to have stopped losing my hair, and the top of it still covers where I've lost it so if I straighten it, you can't see the hair loss. In fact, it takes far less time to blow try and straighten now. It's almost a convenience :P

I am reading the November Ensign right now and there are so many talks that seem to hit home. They always do. The leaders of the LDS church all seem to be old enough to have either gone through health issues, or their loved ones have. In the past, I have kind of overlooked stories of people with health issues. I wasn't near as sympathetic as I should have been. Now, I am learning empathy. It's a rough way to learn it. Some of you are lucky enough, or kind enough, to have been born with it. Don't ever underestimate that talent. 

Well, It's almost 5, and I think my stomach has settled. I'm going to try to get some more sleep. 

Waiting...waiting...oh crap! it's tomorrow!

I have been so anxious to start treatment, and now its just a day away and I don't think I am ready. I talked to a lady Thursday night. She had received her first treatment of radiation that morning, and seemed fine, which made me feel much better. Then, I ran into her daughter yesterday at Kohl's (love Kohl's) and she said the nausea had hit and she was very very sick. I really hate nausea. With the flu, you wake up and you are sick...with cancer, it is a planned event. Like a roller coaster where there is a build up.Wait...bad comparison...I love roller coasters!

I am listening to general conference right now, and find comfort in it. Later I will have a friend give me a blessing. I wanted to go to the temple before I start treatment, but didn't make it. Maybe I can make it Tuesday before the nausea hits. I am so greatful for the influence of the church in my life. Knowing that God is real, and that He will be here for me, blessing me, through this time, gives me more comfort than I can even express. 

Kalynn is going with me tomorrow, which is comforting. Kalynn is calm and that is what I need tomorrow. I love Kalynn! She has done more to influence me as a mother, and how I will be as a wife, than anyone. 

I had a great talk with my daughter-in-law, Steffani today. She is great, and is great for Tyrel. Her, Ty and my grandson Taygen were going to come by today, but Taygen is sick, so it will just be Ty. I adore Ty...it will be good to see him for a bit tonight. That boy has always known how to make me laugh.