I have mixed feelings about tomorrow. I am so very excited to get it over with, so I hope my white blood cells are up enough to have it. But I also feel great right now and don't want to be sick again. Don't want to have to take all the anti-nausea pills again.
I need to keep reminding myself that it is only 5 days, then it is over!!! No more chemo. No more cancer. Time to recover and heal. Time to get back to normal.
The heading to my blog says that dating was more painful than cancer. It wasn't. Cancer (treatment) has been rough. I don't wish this on anyone. But I have been so very blessed during this time. Friends and family have been so supportive. I have so many people to thank (yes, I was watching the Oscars tonight).
I heard today that my neighbor, who has been fighting lung cancer for a couple of years, is now free of the disease. She was told a few months ago that there wasn't anything more the doctors could do, but she searched for someone who would continue to treat her, and I am so happy she did. She fought hard, and when she was given no hope, she still fought! I am so proud of her, and happy for her and her family.
I will be taking my (mom's) laptop to treatment tomorrow, and will be online if anyone wants to chat (firstname.lastname@example.org on MSN), or stop by and say hi. I'll have blood tests and meet with the doctor at 12:30, then will be in the chemo chair hooked up to an IV from about 1:30 to 4. I'm on the second floor of the Central Utah Clinic across from the Provo Hospital.
5 days of poison then I am done. I can hardly believe it!!!